Masaomi Kida (
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[The first thing Masaomi shares is a picture. It's dark as always, but for once, that doesn't affect visibility. Half of the picture is filled with Masaomi's anxiously grinning face. He's pointing over his shoulder where a parade of bright colors and surreal costumes is marching past the school.]
Nobody told me Beacon had a circus! This shit's insane!
[Aaaand that's it. That's all anyone gets.
Masaomi will not respond to this post. He is officially a dead boy.]
Nobody told me Beacon had a circus! This shit's insane!
[Aaaand that's it. That's all anyone gets.
Masaomi will not respond to this post. He is officially a dead boy.]
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Sora sinks onto the ground in sort of a cut string sit, his legs out to the side. He's not sure how to respond to the desperation there. Link's a hero. He inherited this. He inherited a need to fix things, and this is a thing to fix. He's a person to protect.
This is so much thinking for what amounts to simple recon mission, Sora realizes in a strange place in the back of his head. But it sort of built up to it, didn't it? Reincarnation, expectations, who you are if you failed to do what you were supposed to. If you failed to be what you were supposed to be. The imminent danger just made it snowball.
It's very lonely, he supposes. Even with all of the friends in the world at your back. He doesn't know how Link is faring, friendwise, but he thinks he might feel something like that too. ]
You know, I was just thinking? If I went alone, and if something happened to me, at least a real hero would still be here. Someone who knew what he was doing, who could do more than just be friends with everybody. Who was better at this whole reincarnation thing. [ .... He laughs, but it's shuddering a little. ] Do you think it's weird for me to be a little jealous of you?
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[Link crawls forward through the snow and curls up next to him, his blue eyes wide as if he's just been struck.]
I'm not worth being jealous of. I mean, I'm strong but...
...But I have no idea what I'm doing! Things just...happen to me and I react. I know what I have to but not why, exactly.
[He looks down at the toes of his boots.
He doesn't know the context for most things. Midna or the gods themselves point him in a direction and he goes. It makes his stomach cramp, he'd always wanted to be his own man and carve his own path.
Does his death, too, mean something? Was he brought to Beacon for a reason? It feels like he must have been...]
If I am a reincarnation or whatever nobody ever told me where I left off last time. So I just fight.
Honestly, I'm a little jealous of you. I'm not very good at making friends. I mean...there are people who like but...
[He shrugs and scratches the back of his neck.]
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The universe had given him, or Sora, or the remnants of whoever he was, one last chance to do something to save the world, and he'd botched it back in Locke City. Knowing for certain that he'd never be the friend Riku remembered was just the terrible window-dressing that death decided to leave on his lap. Just another incomplete Sora with too few memories inside to be of use to anyone and bonds that ended up kind of worthless, in the end. Honestly, no matter how many friends who've told him that he was all right the way he is, that all he needs to do is be himself and go slowly, he sometimes even wished Vanitas thought he was worth his time. At least both he and Riku were up front about how badly he'd failed them. It was something to work toward, at least.
(Also, that last bit gives Sora pause, his eyes blanking out for a few seconds as he goes absolutely still. After all, no one's ever told him that they were jealous of him before while sitting in a world of complete darkness. The last time this happened in front of Link, Sora was bleeding out on a couch. He feels like he'd misunderstood why Link was distraught at the time.)
He closes his eyes after the echo, trying to play that moment normally. Naminé likes who he is. She's waiting for him at the bonfire. She must be cold. That's something to start with. ]
I like you for you. I think that no matter who you were, or are, with or without the reincarnation stuff, that wouldn't change. Even if that means I just like someone who only knows how to fight.
[ Sora laughs awkwardly. ]
Maybe I'm just desperate? I don't even know if, like, friendship means anything here, sometimes. Maybe me trying to help you feel better is just whatever's left of Sora trying to make the best of me dying too early. I just want us making connections to mean something, or else there's nothing but a bunch of people in the dark, afraid and alone. I don't want that. That's too scary. [ And the sheer weight of wanting something to be true is enough for him, a lot of the time. The alternatives are just too big and scary to think about. ]
So... Maybe we should just go together. [ A cramped amount of space in his lungs makes this hard to say. ] To make you feel like you're the person you were supposed to be, and to make me feel like stuff like friendship and light matters. I wanna think that'll make it real. Somehow.
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If you gotta go out there I'd feel better if I was with you... Or at least if I could know your plan.
Because you're my friend too!
[He reaches out and playfully claps Sora on the back, trying to draw some levity into a situation that's starting to feel heavy on his heart.
This existential despair he sees in the other youth strikes at the core of him. When Link started to Awaken he'd felt a similar sort of uncertainty.]
And we're real, you know? Regardless of who we were before. We're here now and living or...er...
[He pinches his nose. Words are hard.]
Existing.
You and me have our thoughts and minds and experiences so that makes us real. Who we are now matters.
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This next smile comes out a little more easily, anyway. (Hey, words are hard. Relateable.) When it comes down to it, that's the only thing that's ever been important. ]
Who we are now. Okay. I believe that. I do.
The plan's just to go there, see if he's still there, and come back to report. I wanna do more than that, but I've made too many promises now. I can't. [ He laughs, but it's a little wrung out. ] I can't even follow you if you try to go in and rescue him yourself. So don't. I think that'd kill me.
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I won't go, but you have to come back okay?
If you die out there I'll kill you.
[He lowers his gaze, brow furrowing.]
....We all need to make it.
There's another lantern we have to protect. No matter what.
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Don't worry, I won't. [ Sora sort of chuckles. ] Rosinante said there's a one in three chance that you don't come back if you die. [ He pauses, looks down at the forest floor. Now's not the time to joke about what happened to the Sora here who got lost in the forest months ago. ] I don't like gambling.
[ ... He'll lift off onto his feet, then turn to Link. ]
Are you... sure you don't want to go together?
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I just figured I'd work things out in the heat of the moment.
[He growls.]
Otherwise I would.
[He stares down at his fingertips and considers his own words. Should he elaborate? He should probably elaborate.]
I mean, 'cause of the sound. I don't have ear plugs and my ears aren't like yours.
Uh. As I'm sure you've noticed.
[He reaches up and tugs at an earlobe.]
My hearing is better than a round-eared person's. My people can detect even the faintest sounds around 'em. Which is pretty useful most of the time but probably works against me in this case...
Tying my cap around my head probably wouldn't be enough, would it?
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Next time, we can think of a plan that we can do together. [ Sora looks at Link... then at Link's lamp. Why did he have to leave his lamp? Was it because of the wolf? And the darkness? Hm. ] I think I have a couple ideas of how I can help you, at least when it comes to things like the parade.
[ He holds out his hand to Link. Want up? ] If something happens to me, and I don't come back in a few, you guys have permission to find me to kill me. Even if I'm already dead! Deader. [ He scratches his own head. Yeah, words are hard. ] I trust you guys will find me. I'll come back to you. I promise.
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Good, you'd better.
[He steps over his lamp and retrieves it from the low branch he'd hung it from. He'd noticed Sora looking between him and it with a curious expression.
It's probably not something he should comment on but the words tumble out of his mouth anyway.]
Yeah, my lamp.
Don't worry about that! I've got that whole thing under control, I promise!
[Which is actually Link for "this stunt will kill me someday but that's on me."]
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Sora looks at Link, and then the lamp, and then Link, and then the lamp. This explanation means nothing to Sora, misser of context clues. ]
Okay, now I have to come back alive. I have so many questions for you.
[ But he'll just start... reluctantly moving away. He doesn't actually want to leave the company of a friend... but now he's got a mission and he has to see it through. ]
You'll hear from me in thirty minutes. I swear! [ And as long as Link doesn't stop him, he'll walk a little ways backward, and then get back on track to the school. Hopefully, Masaomi's okay!
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Around 15 minutes later, Link will receive a message in his inbox. ]