@lonk; audio; January 31

[sublimebeast]

Uh. Hi.

I'm sorry to anyone who's had to be around me over the last... I dunno. However long it's been.

I wasn't myself and I know I messed up real bad.

I'm better now.

...I mean, I'm still dead but I'm alone in my own head again or whatever so that's nice.

How is everyone else?

Are you all okay?

[A long pause.]

Right. Yeah.

That's all.

How I do make this thing stop ag--

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[arsarcanum]

oh
okay

consider not meaning that maybe?

[evulsed]

No.

I'd rather watch him squirm.

[arsarcanum]

huh
okay
and that makes you feel... good?

[evulsed]

Were you the one he hurt?

[arsarcanum]

yup!

so did it feel good?
the thing you're doing here in this post
idk if you've stabbed me before

[evulsed]

Pathetic.

Did you even try to defend yourself?

[ ignoring the question? absolutely ]

[arsarcanum]

kinda? didn't really work though :P obvs

okay, so you get your kicks from hurting people
(or smth? idk tell me if i'm wrong)
next question: why? does it make you stronger or something?

[evulsed]

You deserved what you got.

I don't know Sora. Why don't you try to remember?

[arsarcanum]

omg cool so you do know who i am
i was kinda wondering about that

anyway uuuh kinda can't! that's why i'm asking

this is tight tho now i have more questions
1. why did i deserve what i got?
2. are we actually brothers or was that a figure of speech?

[evulsed]

You also go by Skyler.

So the question is: are you really who you think you are?

[arsarcanum]

[ bit of a longer pause here. ]

they call me "hell" (clap clap)
they call me "stacey" (clap clap)

anyway
i don't really know to be honest?
but i have friends who don't care about me being one thing or another so i figure that i can leave that until it matters

are you gonna keep hurting people randomly? because it makes you feel strong? or is it like a literal power-up? like are you a professional homicidal buzzkill? like why would you willingly choose darkness? are ya winnin', son?

[evulsed]

[ a sensation like cold fury goes through him, making his skin prickle. So, this is what Skyler talks like, is it? ]

It must be nice, having the validation of your friends to make that okay. Walking around with someone's body when their heart is fractured from it, leaving them incomplete.

[ And Vanitas knows that better than anyone; because without Ventus, he's incomplete too. ]

You really are a callous boy, aren't you?

[arsarcanum]

[ Another longer pause before this next message comes in. ]

if we're going to make some wild guesses about what actually hurts us now vs what stopped hurting a while back then let's make it constructive!
i'm going to make a biiiiiig guess here and say that you didn't want my help a couple of weeks ago because the idea of needing help is painful to you
which i get? lots of people don't want help for lots of reasons, but maybe consider that getting help fast is worth a headache
if i was gonna make a smaller guess about you i'd say that you don't want to get to know me well enough to say something that actually hurts
which is too bad because the fastest way to hurt someone is to get to know someone and THEN hurt them
everything else takes time or luck
or! you DO know something that will hurt me but it's going to either hurt someone you care about or you
which means you have enough of a heart for it to hurt and like, hey! that's something to celebrate! not the hurting part, just the having a heart part
i'm not gonna make any smaller guesses because that's all i'm sure about and i don't wanna put words in your mouth but bud? if there's one thing i've always known about being me, it's that i've always needed friends to tell me to keep going when i think i can't
so i think maybe you should probably rethink the shotgun approach if you wanna get any headway here because taking potshots at stuff i've made obvious for days isn't gonna work fast enough
tick tock bud two years left

anyway in interest of stopping this before you or i accidentally stumble into hurting each other (see? time or luck)
do you wanna go get ice cream with me?

[evulsed]

Wrong on all accounts. You really don't know anything at all.

Go back to your little friends, Skyler. You're a useless disappointment to me as you are.

Maybe we'll talk again if you remember anything worthwhile.

[arsarcanum]

man it's weird how all i remember is people telling me i'm useless and weak and then it's like i'm supposed to be doing something for them anyway?
why can't you people make up your minds?
which is it?

anyway ice cream invite is still open
they have 31 flavors and i'm trying them all
i'm planning on getting REAL sick
you could probably stab me after if you want in on the attempted murder