[ he ignores the just what?; barely blinks in acnowledgement. instead— ] Je— ez, I said I'd help, so I'll help. I like to keep my word.or at least try.
[ he exhales, audibly, and runs a hand down his face. ironically — is it irony? — beacon's the first time in a long time that he's spent the majority of his time as peter parker. there's no real reason for him to don the suit, to patrol and to find someone to take his frustrations out on. it's — weirdly sobering, and it's made him realise a few things about himself that he'd admittedly already known, but hadn't felt particularly inclined to acknowledge.
spending more time as peter means more time to do the things he says he'll do, more time to be there for the people he says he'll be there for, and it's — it's weird, to not be battling disappointment on account of something he can't admit to. ]
Magic's not the be-all and end-all, Quentin. [ a breath of a pause and a noise that's something between guh and nngh. ] I don't claim to get it, because that's never been my area, but what I have managed to get? Is that there aren't any easy answers here. Magic, science, logic— none of it exists here. Like, why isn't there light? The simplest of things and it doesn't—. [ he huffs. ] It doesn't make any sense. [ but whatever, that's hardly relevant. ] I don't have powers, I don't have special abilities— [ it's amazing, really, how easily the lie rolls off his tongue ] — but trust me, I'm not offended by you reaching out to that first. I would, if I had that kind of thing within easy reach. I'm not offended, and I don't think you were deliberately trying to exclude anyone.
I don't say you're struggling as a, I don't know, condemnation of you, or whatever you think I'm saying. It's not a weakness. Do you know how many times I've messed up in my life? That's rhetorical because the answer's obviously 'no', but it's a lot. It's great that you think I wouldn't be responsible, but unfortunately, I don't live with solely the weight of other people's opinions on my back — and you clearly don't either, otherwise you wouldn't be here. [ the corners of his lips quirk upwards into a wry smile. ] But that aside, you're — I don't want to see anyone here die again. It's not about responsibility, it's about being a normal person. The first time we met, you spoke to me about trust. You know what goes with trust? Community. How can we be that if we don't care about what happens to each other?
[ but whatever. ]
—You've heard the saying, right? About no man being an island? Don't make me break out the trite quotes at you.
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[ he exhales, audibly, and runs a hand down his face. ironically — is it irony? — beacon's the first time in a long time that he's spent the majority of his time as peter parker. there's no real reason for him to don the suit, to patrol and to find someone to take his frustrations out on. it's — weirdly sobering, and it's made him realise a few things about himself that he'd admittedly already known, but hadn't felt particularly inclined to acknowledge.
spending more time as peter means more time to do the things he says he'll do, more time to be there for the people he says he'll be there for, and it's — it's weird, to not be battling disappointment on account of something he can't admit to. ]
Magic's not the be-all and end-all, Quentin. [ a breath of a pause and a noise that's something between guh and nngh. ] I don't claim to get it, because that's never been my area, but what I have managed to get? Is that there aren't any easy answers here. Magic, science, logic— none of it exists here. Like, why isn't there light? The simplest of things and it doesn't—. [ he huffs. ] It doesn't make any sense. [ but whatever, that's hardly relevant. ] I don't have powers, I don't have special abilities— [ it's amazing, really, how easily the lie rolls off his tongue ] — but trust me, I'm not offended by you reaching out to that first. I would, if I had that kind of thing within easy reach. I'm not offended, and I don't think you were deliberately trying to exclude anyone.
I don't say you're struggling as a, I don't know, condemnation of you, or whatever you think I'm saying. It's not a weakness. Do you know how many times I've messed up in my life? That's rhetorical because the answer's obviously 'no', but it's a lot. It's great that you think I wouldn't be responsible, but unfortunately, I don't live with solely the weight of other people's opinions on my back — and you clearly don't either, otherwise you wouldn't be here. [ the corners of his lips quirk upwards into a wry smile. ] But that aside, you're — I don't want to see anyone here die again. It's not about responsibility, it's about being a normal person. The first time we met, you spoke to me about trust. You know what goes with trust? Community. How can we be that if we don't care about what happens to each other?
[ but whatever. ]
—You've heard the saying, right? About no man being an island? Don't make me break out the trite quotes at you.