[Because he's not, he's looking and there's a difference. There's a difference between leaving and looking and he's doing the latter. For so many reasons that all boil down to I don't want you to suffer but he can't say that. Can't find the words that will make Eliot see that this is all for him, for them.]
I want to find a way out.
[Helplessly and he hugs Eliot tighter, as tightly as he can and breathes him in, heart heavy and thundering in his chest.]
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[Because he's not, he's looking and there's a difference. There's a difference between leaving and looking and he's doing the latter. For so many reasons that all boil down to I don't want you to suffer but he can't say that. Can't find the words that will make Eliot see that this is all for him, for them.]
I want to find a way out.
[Helplessly and he hugs Eliot tighter, as tightly as he can and breathes him in, heart heavy and thundering in his chest.]